Tech | The Dark Word

Starting on a negative always risks coming across as whiney, but it’s been a while since my last entry and since then, I’ve had lots to whine about, including but not limited to:

Tech failing one after another, from a red ring on my xbox to a computer with a burnt graphic card connection to the dvd player being retarded… all this resulting in a big frustrated sigh and just giving up on trying (good came of this, trust me).
4 good friends deleting their Facebook pages, without telling me, and only having the emails for two (one of whom uses hotmail!).
Anxiety over whether or not to delete all the attractive females I know (of those who are left) because I’m obviously invisible .
Think that in fact, maybe I should just delete it all together, because I was being ignored by EVERYONE… no joke, just about (2 people seemed to be the total who responded in any way, shape or form, to any message, comment or whatever that I posted, in the last 2 months).
Anxiety in general. Could not sleep. Had to start taking two sleeping pills a night for a week (still am, don’t tell my doctor).
Failing at living life (seriously, how do I get out of my comfort zone and do the things that scare/bore/annoy the crap out of me, so I avoid like the plague, but are necessary for living?).
Four people asking to see COF and then not reading it. I assume they got stuck on the bit with where I had a momentary lack of brain function and put in a long explanation of the world from page one to about page three. Bad idea (fixed now).
Being confused with convicted paedophile Dennis Ferguson. Not once, not twice, but three times this year. For fuck’s sake, I have enough shit to deal with without morons seeing “That’s the paedophile!” when they see my name. I want to change it, preferably the last, but to what? ARGH!
Stupid itunes not being able to find songs I copied from pc to laptop. *head desk*.
And more depression on account of my birthday *normally* sucking so bad I have considered suicide.

BUT!

(what’s that you say?)

It hasn’t been ALL gloom and doom. There have been some very, very awesome things in my life (THANK GOD!), including but not limited to:

My xbox working again. Seriously, I thought it gave me the third or fourth Red Ring of Death in a year! Turned out it was just overheated a bit.
I got like 4000 words done of Children of Fire’s sequel (not sure on the name… either Children of Frost and Shadow/Shade, or The Storm Scion, or something to do with Elementals). It’s now 8000 words. I didn’t do much over NaNoWriMo, didn’t last year either, just really slack of me I know. But still. 8000 words written is better than 8000 you keep making excuses not to write, any day.
I FINALLY got some bloody feedback on COF. About freaking time! Oh and what’s this? Three out of three loved it, and two more want to see it? I don’t want to get too excited too soon, but if this rate keeps up, it might become an internet sensation, similar to John Dies At The End and All Who Read This Book Die (haven’t read yet) and while that’s the first draft and they’ll need to pay to read the published version, well, it’s pretty exciting feedback. Even the criticisms gave me something to work on, and weren’t just bashing. I mean sure, criticism is that, but from people whose opinions I trust, it’s okay because they are helpful.
The editor I submitted it to like it, said it didn’t need structural editing, just line-level stuff. Meaning I’m probably going to be a published author next year. Of a post-apocalypse book. In 2012. *insert maniacal villain laugh*
Onto the last season of Stargate SG1. Took ages, but here we are. “200” was Hilarious.
Oh yes, and I got a Nerf gun for my birthday. And saw Real Steel, which was better than I expected. And got Skyrim. And Lord of the Rings: War in the North, both of which = pure awesome.

So that’s basically my mega-post, since I haven’t posted much in the last few months.